"Burning Slowly" by The Crash Recovery (Lyrics and Melody by me)

You know what? When I wrote these lyrics, they were about a struggle that my husband and I wen't through. By the time I wrote this song, we were good.

But I listen to it, and I think, wow... this man... How is it that I love him so very much?

I am the chaser in this relationship, and he is the withdrawer... and this is a pattern... and knowing this, knowing the things that I know, I am beginning to think I was right all along when I used to introduce him as my soulmate. Even if my concept of soulmates differs from the traditional or widely accepted one.

Soulmates challenge each other, it's not suppose to be easy. And yet, it can be, it has been, and it is...
Anyway. This song is about commitment, and working things through. The music video has nothing to do with it but is fitting if you don't know what the message is suppose to be.

Truth be told, any time I have emotional insecurities or vulnerabilities within my relationship, I listen to this song and "Always Beside You"... Did I mention that I am a big fan of this band I am a part of even if we have been on hiatus for a long while? I always feel like I am listening to someone else, the quality and all. Plus we got to work with Grammy winning producers! Wow!!!

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