The Life of Syren Franco

Been reading the bible over and over. Yes I have read the Torah, and Koran too, but the Christian Bible is the most influential book in my life and my community , so I read it for a multitude of reasons and to understand where people of faith come from. It is obvious to me that people don't read the Bible and if they do, they do not reflect on the lessons.. starting with Genesis it is already telling us to let go of anger, disappointment, and vengeance. It is telling us our actions have consequences but we are always loved, but to do good always, even after we've made grave and harmful choices, just keep doing good, and sin will not be able to destroy you. That doesn't even mean be a saint! Just focus on what's good!

Recently my stripey cat, Togame (toe-gah-mee), had two kittens, but they didn't make it past 24 hours since she was too young to have kittens.

I had been wondering where my ambition went, where my desire went. Not that I don't get spikes of those, but over all, I didn't recognize this feeling... Well there is one desire still, but I accepted I can't do anything about it and accepted it is not in my future and if it is, I will just have to let life play out... But this odd feeling of not wanting anything more was not a bad feeling... What could the feeling be? I was calm, and I just didn't have any crazy aspiratio ns. Then it occurred to me that I am content.  I am content!  And I don't mean I am material in a website, I mean I am happily satisfied. I know I said this before but I just realized how long I have been content and didn't even realize it. I was so used to being in my head I was wondering if I was depressed or something even though I didn't feel gloomy. Not that I have not been happy before, but there was always something, there was always drama, or something from outside source

Tonight I got to sing on stage for an open mic night with the awesome band I joined, The Crash Recovery. There's so much I want to share, and I can't decide on making a video or writing a book! But bottom line is, I am very grateful to be a part of this project, everything we've done so far is just amazing to me. We did the open mic night to test out set up and break down and sound for the May 13th show. Good thing we did so because there were issues we were able to recognize and fix. Once we got everything squared away, we performed 1 original song and one cover. The original song is "Burning Slowly", a sort of love song. The cover was "Creep" by Radio Head, which if you've been to Karaoke, you know I love singing that bridge line and I really shine through vocally for it. Consider it was an open mic night and we were a very very different sound, although the last time I sang there acoustically with my previous band mates the

I've been waiting for the free time to do it, but I've been talking about it for YEARS! I am going to start filming for my YouTube channel. Just the one, the Syren Franco channel. I want to interview people I admire, my peers, my role models, people who follow their dreams and passions no matter what! People who persevere... But travel costs money so this will be a slower process... In the mean time, I want to post anti-tutorials... "Syren, what the heck is an anti-tutorial?" I'm coining the term, It's a tutorial without being a tutorial, more like me sharing what and how I do something and of course it will be mostly make up... But I also want to do some photography ones, actual ones... I'm no super star photographer though, but I know a few things. Although the photography ones will indeed go into the photography YouTube... I want to make videos using the products I endorse to pay tribute to the things I

Last night i slipped into my dream world. There I dreamed of my “My Child” dolls, my mom and brother moving in, job prospects (which when I woke up I had emails for), motor cycles, interaction with people I have never met, China Town, flying like a super hero, and pregnancy possibly threatened. And it’s the last one which was the most graphic and impacting to me. I was showering and I realized I was pregnant, several months along it seemed. I got out of the shower and placed my hands on my belly and looked at it, the fetus was pressing his/her feet and hands against my belly so I can see a clear outline of them. In my minds eye I could see the fetus in it’s peaceful state inside of me. I was calm and zen about it. I grabbed a black towel to dry up and looked in the mirror to see blood smeared on my thighs. I checked the towel and there were very strange blood clots like jelly. Large and all over. I did not feel sick and I didn’t feel the fetus was in danger