Day 3 H2O2 Therapy: Maybe I ate too much yesterday?

So just a while ago I took my cup of water with my 20 drops of 35 percent food grade hydrogen peroxide on an empty stomach. I had also brushed my teeth and rinsed with peroxide before doing so... I forgot to brush my teeth before bed, or was too lazy, and I woke up feeling extra plaque in my mouth, yuck!

I weighed in at 224.4, so there goes my plan of dropping a pound a day, but then again, I ate a lot yesterday too, which is fine. I had some left overs again for the last time because the rest went to the dogs for a yummy dinner. I also had about a third of the small pumpkin pie, which was all that was left. I had a tall glass of milk with that too... and this was for lunch because for breakfast a couple of hours earlier I was at my mom's and had a nice breakfast of half weenie rolled tacors (2), two eggs over easy, and mashed pinto beans. I drank green tea with that but I had a small slice of coconut frosted white cake. And then for dinner I had a waffle with PB and J and a cup of milk... Compared to the other days there was a lot of pastries, and an extra meal... but like I said, I eat when I am hungry, and I was hungry, although I admit, I wasn't really hungry for the pastries....

Well, I still feel good.

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