The Life of Syren Franco

When I wrote these lyrics, I had in mind a mother and child... or something to that effect, but by the time the song was complete I felt more like this was about my better half.  And yet, it is not about anything of the sort... so many layers.  The theme here, however, is love.

I wake up fairly early but decide to go back to sleep.  I let the dogs out and set my alarm for 10:30 a.m.  I think about my husband, I miss waking up to him leaving for work, and I miss his goodbye kisses.  At least the bed is comfortable.  I can go back to sleep and dream about those kisses. 10:30 a.m. the alarm goes off.  I dismiss it and lay in bed longer.  Just as I am about to fall asleep I hear knocking and the dogs are letting me know we have a guest.  I get out of bed and get dressed to go greet my visitor.  It's my neighbor, D, and he was stopping by to hang for a few minutes and take a smoke break.  Since before we bought this house he used to come to this property to hide out for a few moments, but now we've befriended him and he is always welcome to stop by. I thank him for waking me up, he is surprised and apologetic about it.  I explain I have an appointment at noon so I needed to get out of bed anyway.  His ...

You know what? When I wrote these lyrics, they were about a struggle that my husband and I wen't through. By the time I wrote this song, we were good. But I listen to it, and I think, wow... this man... How is it that I love him so very much? I am the chaser in this relationship, and he is the withdrawer... and this is a pattern... and knowing this, knowing the things that I know, I am beginning to think I was right all along when I used to introduce him as my soulmate. Even if my concept of soulmates differs from the traditional or widely accepted one. Soulmates challenge each other, it's not suppose to be easy. And yet, it can be, it has been, and it is... Anyway. This song is about commitment, and working things through. The music video has nothing to do with it but is fitting if you don't know what the message is suppose to be. Truth be told, any time I have emotional insecurities or vulnerabilities within my relationship, I listen to this song and "A...

As you saw in my last post, my husband did not respond to my final texts, and today, he missed hockey.   If he didn't go to hockey because he slept in, then I have to admit, I am glad he slept in.  Sleep has been a major issue for him for so long now.  But when he came into the house and made coffee, with a smile on his face, and excitement in his voice to get back to lounging around to do nothing, I took a stand.  I asked him to sleep with me one night a week at least.  He asked which night would be best and I suggested Friday night.  He agreed since Saturdays he usually does not work.  But this honestly comes as a bittersweet decision for me. On the one hand, he is being cooperative, or at least complaint to what I ask of him affection wise.  On the other hand, it is not coming from him.  I cannot help but wonder if he will ever want me at all.  And how will I feel if I get in shape and he wants me then?  Relieved? Frustrated...

I didn't get a good start for driving.  Truth be told I was hoping my husband would want to spend time with me, but I was kidding myself thinking he was ready for that.  All he wants to do is play video games and not worry about anything.  I empathize.  I understand he is overwhelmed.  But I miss him.  I love him so much and I miss him which is only worsened because he is here, we have pleasant conversations and yet he feels so absent from my life now. I gave up and decide to go driving at about 7:30 am.  The day is good, and I pick up many different passengers.  I go through many different thoughts, but most of them I forget.  But some of them find analogies with the show we are watching in relation to the theme in our lives right now.  It does feel like my husband isn't himself, and yet, he is.  And does it matter?  Isn't the soul what matters? I call him again, a final attempt at trying to spend time with him.  I as...

This morning after getting out of bed, tending to the animals, and unloading the tires in my car, I decide to head out and drive a few hours before my appointment.  The idea is I will come home as a break and head out again at night.  I walk out and notice cat, Togame, paying attention to that new tire.  Again I wonder if it was from a fatal accident.  I start to think of good horror movie ideas based on that premise but alas, I went to work. I think about the Lyft driver from yesterday, I wonder how I can maximize my earnings to earn $800 in one weekend. I think my best night was $290 and I put in 10 hours. Thinking about money starts to give me anxiety.  I think about the therapy costs of $180 every week.  I cannot afford that.  I don't want to go to my next appointment now.  I wonder why I ever did such a thing, and now that separation is a real threat I can't afford the luxury of seeking therapy. I give a couple of rides and end up at a ...

Before the year ended in 2017, Finding THETIS released their first single, "Crawl" from their upcoming EP. I am having a great time recording and performing with these guys, and am proud to be a part of this EP. This is Crawl, available on iTunes and Spotify! What do you think? =)